FP4 won't go into recovery mode

I can’t get the Fairphone and Android logo to “stay”, it always continues to loop…
The only thing I can do is go into the boot menu when I turn on the FP holding volume down and releasing it as soon as I see the FP logo. The first line I see is “FastBoot Mode” in red, so is this the FastBoot menu or something else? Maybe i’m stuck in fastboot mode?? When I plug in the cable when on the boot menu screen nothing happens and the “fastboot devices” command returns nothing.